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Wednesday, January 27

Leaders meeting. @ 13:25

I dragged myself to leaders meeting as I really wanted to go home to rest. Yet, forsaking all, I still will follow. So I trusted that the meeting will be good.

Well, reverse psychology works. The more you don't feel like going, all the more you should go.

Waited for Lester Soh for 10mins at Pioneer MRT because he is late and I could probably guess that he delayed too long at Orchard doing his stuff. Well, he was also trying to get a birthday card for me. But the delay was a blessing in disguise. We met Helen when we alighted bus 179. Kinda miss her and can empathise with her long suffering condition that she is probably going through now.

We were late for meeting because we went to the toilet and Christine had a quick bite from Old Chang Kee which I bought from Great World City.

It was a simple meeting. We praised and worshiped, we prayed, Pastor Tan shared a Word and the leaders were ministered and we prayed again.

Something that I felt I have to do. I need a new rhema word for the now. Going up to the next level to inspire those under.

Pastor preached about the System of Slavery.

God delivered the children of Isreal from the control of Egypt as slaves yet entered into another 6 years of the system of slavery and hence be freed. The system of slavery was not to impose more abuse and bondage onto the Children of Isreal. But it was to teach them about responsibility, learning from the master. Basically, growing up, to be more matured.

This led to the leadership an discipleship towards church growth.

People who are placed under our leadership needed to learn certain principle of responsibility. The responsibility to plan and budget our finances and stay debt-free. The responsibility as a child &/or a parent at home, as a employee/ employer at work, as a student/ teacher, as a disciple & follower of God etc.

The master, on the other hand, had to learn how to love those who are under them as if they are his/ her children.

A good master will have more and more servants while a bad master will have lesser and lesser servants.

Therefore, the leadership placed above us are to get us from 1 place to the other, improving our lives, character, principles, mindsets etc. Bringing us into freedom to bear forth good fruits just like the leader.

However, not all will want to have freedom because of love. A bondservant.

So does the people under you get their lives better?

Tuesday, January 26

Back from BKK!! @ 13:36

Back to reality.

Have been away almost for a week in BKK from 14 Jan 2010 to 19 Jan 2010 and the number 1 thing I prayed to have during this trip is REST. Not sure why but I was overwhelmed by the need to expand my capacity as i journeyed along with Him.

I really looked forward to the getaway from all the responsibilities and expectations and just be who I am.

This time, what I experienced was different from all the other trips I went overseas with friends. It was relaxing with no fixed agenda or a need to please different needs, likings or people. Everyone accomodated and had fun.

Everywhere we went, we took photos, laughed, shopped, spent money and accumulated a great number of memories. I knew that I was with friends who accepted who I really am. Friends who knows that I am tired. Friends who understands the things I am going through. Friends who didnt want to make things difficult. And I knew that I could be myself, the real me, without a need to consider whether I need to put on a certain front or mask.

Basically, I behaved like a little child who was clumsy and playful; at the same time, I was like a big sister taking care of the little ones at certain times.

Christine kept saying that photos of me are flooded in all the cameras which we brought to BKK and I guess it is really true. Honestly, I love magic moments which I would like to remember forever. However, I knew that I have a short term memory and the only way would be to take them down on beautiful pictures.

We had so much fun and laughter.

I remember wearing out the bathroom slipper when we left the hotel room to start our day with breakfast.

I remember laughing out so hard when Limei realised that another hotel guest has left his room key outside at the door. She knocked on the door and a guy wth a stern facial expression opened the door and asked "What?!", thinking that we were playing a prank on him. But his expression immediately changed when we told him about his room key, he sheepishly thanked us and we walked away laughing. Loudly.

I remember we had a grace of God when the immigration officer shouted at someone who was taking photo after we finished our candid shots at the immigration counter.

I remember Limei and Yaowen asking me and Edmund if we need to fill up the immigration white card on our return flight to Singapore.

I remember Yaowen's bag was flooded with his Clear shampoo as his shampoo bottle broke (de to rough treatments on the check-in baggage). And well, his shampoo not only made its statement on his stuff but also on my new Naraya bag and Christine's make-up pouch. Oh well...

Overall, great trip. Great time. Great people.

But it is time to get things started in Singapore as there are things that needs to be addressed. Back to reality.

Saturday, January 23

New bag. @ 13:18

Did I tell you that my MOM is really so sweet????

As you probably know that I have been aiming this bag that as far as I know, only Louis Vuitton offers now. You should know which is the one that I am referring to if you follow my blog posts. As mentioned before, 3 deciding factors are design, quality and price which never cease to have an opportunity cost either ways.

MOM knew that I was searching for the specific bag design yet with certain standard or quality. Hence, a normal Bugis street or Pasar Malam bag would not do or seem to impress me.

One day, DAD brought her to this shop which is having a major big promotion to clear their stocks - "buy 1 get 1 free". The first thing that caught MOM's attention was the bag which I have waited for such a long time. DAD commented that she pampers us too much and has spoilt us by giving in to our requests all the time. But MOM insisted on getting that for me because she knew that I have been waiting for a long time to search for the specific design, quality and price.

After that, she came down to Clementi to meet me as we wanted to have a hair cut. She leaked out that she had a surprise for me and asked me to go home early after celebrating the rat's birthday.

When I reached home, she proudly presented the bag to me and I was overjoyed.

MOM is so sweeeeeeeeet right?

Not to mention, she came down to my office at Great World City yesterday to pass me my HP as I left it at home when I was rushing off for work and she knew that I was meeting friends at night. Gave me a lunch treat at Jack's place and I think some of my colleague saw me. HA....

Shi shang zhi you ma ma hao............
Well, I have been to 2 countries within 1 month.

I went to Bintan with my lovely animal kingdom friends who never cease to put a smile on my face. No matter how irritating they can be, it will end up a little gesture of fun, love and joy.

Due to Christmas service on 25th December, Friday, I had to take a later boat trip to Bintan and Ed had to accompany me as it would be very dark by the time we reach there.

I was rather dead tired and felt that I was also going to fall sick the moment I landed on Bintan island. Slept throughout the car ride to our resort, Argo Beach Hotel. When we reached the resort, the rest were playing pool and waiting for our arrival.

Went to pick up some stuff for supper and "party" for our Christmas exchange in the night. Then we went for our seafood dinner at the sea.

After bathing, we went over to the guys room and decorated our Christmas trees with all our wishes for the year 2010. Took incredible photos and witnessed Kumar being tortured and hung on the wall by the pig.

After all the exchanging of presents, the 7 of us squeezed into a king size and a single bed. Well, trust me, it requires great skills to fall asleep in that kind of condition where we were all having our suana under the blanket and the humid/ stuffy air which caused us to drown in sweat and flu.

I was the first to give up, obviously lacking the master skills. Came out of the bad condition and went to the toilet and refused to go back under the blanket again. We ended up going back to our respective rooms which were rather far apart.

The next day, we went over to an isolated island which is really a SMALL island and got our feet masked with all the mud on the sea base. That's our so-called "foot spa".

Then we had lunch in a hut at the sea, ate pizza, satay and fruit juices. Blowing the cool and gentle breeze, we sat there and chat.

We went back to our resort rooms and thought of trying the professional foot spa offered by the resort but it was raining heavily and the slots were fully booked. So we went back to the resort lobby and waited for the transport to bring us around in the town area.

2 days ended very quickly and it really didnt feel as if it was a holiday or a break from Singapore as I knew that there were things that are happening in Singapore. Burdened and helpless. Still, I thank God that I was able to spend 2 days with lovely people.

P.S. I got MC for Monday and Tuesday which meant that I had a very long but miserable weekend.

Tuesday, January 12

Morning revelation @ 13:56

I was on the way to work yesterday, totally drained out and tired physically.

I prayed and ask God for strength to go through the week.

"Depths of Your love" by The Alternative
Before the Earth

Before all days
You knew me

Formed in Your image
Made in Your likeness
You loved me

The light of Your word
The truth of Your promise guides me
The power of Your mercy
The love of Your grace

Deep inside of me

It's the depths of Your love
Moving in the depths of me

I believe in the power of Your Name
I believe in the promise of faith
I believe in the love of a God
Jesus my Saviour

I believe, I believe

Speak into this mountain
To move into the ocean
With Your authority
Given to me
No matter what had happened
Here I am standing
On the hope of Your word
Promise to me

The bridge really gave me strength has i felt that the Holy Spirit is cheering me on and asked me to speak into this mountain, to move it into the ocean, with the authority that I have and He said "Here I am standing". He reminded me about the time when I called out to have someone walk down the aisle with me during my JC days when I was badly humiliated by my Math lecturer. And I could feel Him saying "Ever since that day when He held my hand, He has never let go of me."
I did mention before that this year I wouldn't want to depend on my strength but only on God; especially now that there are many more young adults added to the group.

Honestly, my strength is failing, getting weaker and so is my physical body as I can feel the strain on myself.

Before speaking to the new people on Saturday, I woke up early to pray and seek the Lord to renew my strength and the fire within me. The things that happened daily has drained all that I had drawn 1 week ago. I simply enjoyed the presence of God and love which embraces me.

When I reached Hall 1, I really had this bad feeling that I wasn't feeling very well. I was running a slight fever by the time I was inside church and when worship just ended, my migraine started and I had this dizzy spell on and off. I was feeling so bad that I had to inform Margaret to cancel Pei Yun's birthday celebration so that I can go home to rest.

Despite all that was happening to my physical condition, I pushed through to talk to the new people. Firm but not fierce. I addressed the issues and concerns that they brought up and I wasn't surprise to realise that whatever they shared are also the issues and concerns that my people were also facing. Well, these are signs of transition or change. Well, they are not as bad or even strong in their character as I have thought. Or probably, it was due to the fact that they realise that the grass at the other side were not greener than their side. We are all facing the same problems.

What could we do to make it happen? It is when we put aside the supposed responsibility and be equal and humble to serve one another and love one another.

I believe everything will work out fine as God is holding us in His hands.
I was on the conference call with a couple of people as we needed to pray for the new environment and the transitioning that the cell group is going through as we accept the new arrangement. As I was speaking, another helper asked a question which I can sense fear and inadequacy stirring in her heart which resulted in a it-is-not-possible kind of attitude. Provoked and inspired in my heart by the Holy Spirit, I spoke and addressed the part about feeling inadequate. Be inspired! This was what I wrote:

There is no limit to dreaming big and doing a new thing for the glory of God.

We must have a revelation that prayer never fails, the peace of God will never fail us because LOVE NEVER FAILS. And I think it is time for us as leaders to explore and soar to the heights that we have not been to before because I believe in that we are all meant for more!

Do not fall short of the glory of God and tap into the grace that which is beyond the amount which has already been given to you.

We got to believe in ourselves that we are meant for more than what we already are. BE CREATIVE! Have passion! Be filled with the JOY of the Lord!

I was really provoked positively and spiritually yesterday when I was reminded about what SUN said during the Thanksgiving Sunday. "Let's take back what belongs to us that the devil has stolen!! It does not belongs to him, BUT the Children of God!" So what if there are hindrances? Does it mean we stop doing what we want to do, need to do or obeying the Lord? What is there to fear when you are called a child of God? Trust and OBEY.

His promises ALWAYS STAND:

"You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you." - John 15:16

"But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Jacob, And He formed you, O Isreal: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine." - Isaiah 43:1


I think these are the words in season as Pastor preached a relatively similar message during the Saturday services.

Thursday, January 7

On the way to work. @ 13:38

I was on the way to work listening to the recent songs that the CHC band has composed.

Beautiful:
Love withou condition
Heart that always listens
To a crying world
Lord of all creation
Humble as a servant
With you, all praise begins

Grace is all sufficient
You become my portion
More than life could bring
All my past forsaken
I lay my own ambition
Before my King of dreams

What can I give that's worthy
To you, my soul will sing

Beautiful One, merciful Son,
The Crown of all Heavens, reigning in my heart
Beautiful Love, gift from Above
Adore You forever
My Saviour, Jesus

More than enough You're
More than enough You're
More than enough for me


When I listened to this song, the part which says "I lay my own ambition, before my King of dreams" really impacted me.

The thought that God is not our enemy but the devil is! came and I dwelled on this until I reached my office.

I just felt that sometimes we struggled so hard to disobey what He has instructed or given because we wanted our way or we simply fear. Fight so hard against Him so that te instructions that were given need not be carried out. We all knew, by logic, that we should humble ourselves and just simply abide in God's ways. But the great "I" will always be challenging that logic and it is not so simple to follow God without certain encounters with Him.

So the question is, whose side are you at? God is not your enemy but the devil is! If you agree with this, then why sometimes you find it so hard to humble yourself, put aside your own agenda and dreams and accept the calling, dreams and instructions that He has given?

Hence, what the bible says is truth: "My flesh is weak but my Spirit is always willing"

We have got to renew our mind day by day and our strength as we seek God in our daily quiet time and worship.


Let the walls come down:
You're knocking at the door of my heart
Beyond these pretty walls
This bankrupt soul cries for more
You're writing on the walls of my heart
"Forgiven" and "Restored"
The blood of Christ conquers all

You come now
Break down the walls of this house
You're building our lives
Not by might nor by power
But by the Spirit of God
You come now
Break down the walls of this house
Let God be the only renown
Your great love
Flows to the ends of the earth

No longer I but Christ lives in me
All I am is Yours
Surrender now to your call
Living sanctuary, I've become
Vessel of your love
So pour me out, touch this world

Hallelujah (Let all the walls come down)

Tuesday, January 5

The 100th post! @ 13:29

WOW! This is my 100th post for this blog!!! Shall start blogging again before my friends scold me that I am stagnant.

New year, new resolutions, new thing, new goals, new people, new passion, new visions, new ideas, NEW BEGINNING but the same old friends!

This year, it really begun with a great start with a new faith and a hope to fight a great war. A war not against people, but against principalities, power and strongholds. Wondered what is the thing that really instigated this new faith?!

Before the year ended, on 26th December 2009, Saturday, BOXING DAY, the day when Tsunami happened, I was in Bintan, dozing off on the couch in the lobby as my friends and I were waiting for transport to bring us to an island. I received a call from Singapore who apparently turned out to be Timothy.

He informed me that Ian will be requesting for the multiplicaton list immediately after service end and was about to tell me the names of the people that he will be giving to my group. Honestly, I really hope that I can beg Ian to give us a bit of time to discuss about the plan when I am back from Bintan but I knew that there wasn't any room for other options as I can sense that Ian's decision i fixed. He wants the list by the time service ends.

In my heart, there were many doubts, questions and worries. But what can I do to reverse the decision which have been made? Nothing. Feelin helpless, I told Timothy to sms the names over so that I can talk to my leaders when I am back in Singapore.

By Monday, in Singapore, after a great sleep on Sunday and recovering from the flu, I figured out that it doesn't matter what happened because no matter what arrangements that will be made, these are God's people, His precious people and I am just a willing vessel ready to be sent out for missions.

I spoke to the leaders in my CG and said that we may doubt certain decisions that is made or even be uncertain about the future but what we can have faith about is God will never give us something that we cannot bear. It might be difficult because it requires us to step out of our comfort zone but it is never IMPOSSIBLE!

With all this in hand, I have faith that everything is gonna be fine. Beyond that, I have this feeling that we have to instil the youthful nature, mindset and ideas back into this youth CG. And now is the time.

My revelation to for this year is "In my weaknesses, His strength will be made known" heading towards "humility" and "obedience".

Looking back in year 2009, I really believe that many of us wrestled very much whether to give up or to keep on keeping on. The common thoughts that we all share will be "What is the point of sacrificing?"

I still remember the tormenting thoughts that always cross my mind: "Will I be able to sustain? Can I give up my calling, ministry and ? Should I let go of the dreams that have been given just to stay as a normal member with much lesser commitment and sacrifices?" These thoughts which I must say have crossed my mind everyday in year 2009. The struggle between my flesh and my Spirit is constant and intensed. The dillemna is strong. Before I know it, December has come and it is time to reach out.

My chains are gone, I've been set free.
My God, my Saviour has ransomed me.
And like a flood, His mercies reigns.
Unending love, Amazing grace.
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