It is time to pen down my thoughts again. It helps me think and vomit all the negativity my mind is surrounded with.
You have no clue how many times I wanted to give up. Every day, every hour, every minute: I question myself how long more do I have to endure, when will it bear fruits, when will change happen and be more fun and fulfilling, when can I say I love what I'm doing as I see light, purpose and passion? Now, I just wanted to call it quits and move on but I'm holding back because I know it is still not the time yet.
This experience is like an endurance training, going against all odds. Its like we have been cycling for 40km, all your energy has been used up, you're feeling those lactic acid building up, you're feeling breathless and your body is sending whatever signals to say it is reaching its breaking point, you look ahead and you can't see the cycling track clearly let alone the finish line. What a longsuffering journey this is and very tired I am.
Lord, I need a change and I need opportunities knocking on my door for all aspects. You know my heart and You know what I mean.
