Life is like a TV show

"The most incredible thing about miracles is that they happen" (G.K. Chesterton).

Jesus says, "All things are possible if YOU BELIEVE!"

by Pst Kong Hee

Yayayayayayay!!! Now I know you have took notice! Happy feet! *dancing*

So super duper nervous.. Heehee..

"Friends you treasure are friends you make time for no matter how busy you are in life. Your time = your life. When you give your time it tells them they are as important to you as your life is." - Stephanie Ho Pei Yun

And I realized that when you reply your friends through SMS, WhatsApp, BBM; it also means how important they are to you because you BOTHER to reply them.

And I must be conscious about replying SMS because there are time I genuinely forgot. >_< Sorry if you are the one.

I kept asking for the 3 same things and there didn't seem to be any breakthrough. Somehow, I felt that this is a test, a test of patience without losing faith, hope and love. A test of believing that the seed will grow and bud off with fruits. A test of trusting God in His ways.


"Therefore be patient, brethren, until the coming of the Lord. See how the farmer waits for the precious fruit of the earth, waiting pariently for it until it receives the early and latter rain." - James 5:7

You are the farmer who has sowed many seeds onto the field but has no control over the growth of the seeds. All you could do is trust that He who has control over it will make it grow. And have hope UNTIL you see the fruits of your sowing; be it prayers or works; waiting patiently UPON the Lord.

Career. Ministry. Relationship.


"Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers." - 3 John 1:2

While we focus on the various aspect of our own life, don't forget that God should always be in the center. There are times that we can stray away from this Source but you must always come back to the very foundation of your faith - relationship with God. In this way, everything else will prosper.

"As the deer pants for the water so my soul longs for You."

It has been an interesting walk since late last year till today.

It was a walk of wrestling with myself, an emotional roller coaster, a stepping of into and out of the door and a period where I recalled my identity.

I thank those who stood by even when I didn't ask for it. I thank those who gave me the freedom and space to do what I did as I wrestled within. I thank those who did not give up believing in me and trusting that I know what I was doing. Generally, I thank those who loves me and accepts me for who I am and how I deal with my low period.

I guess I am ready to step out of my shell and do what I need to do. Because I have overcame the issues within.

It's a blessing to be a blessing to others.

He is always at my right hand and I know it since the time I prayed yesterday. And it turned out like how I visualized it to be.

He has never and will never leave me nor forsake me. <3

Having butterflies in my stomach. Haha! *excited*

Waiting UPON the Lord! Yay..

Some of my friends are asking about my Facebook posts that I've been updating recently.

Hahaha! What's that with the 'third time', 'fourth time'? Or even the big reaction that I had this morning when I mentioned that I was really surprised; astounded to the max?! Hahaha!

Seriously, I can't really say for now because I don't know what is His plan. Though I'm quite taken aback by how God works toward this area, I'm pretty happy that at least there's some 'work' done here. Hahaha! Not sure whether to count it a miracle or is it pure coincidence.

Whatever it is or gonna be, I know He knows my heart's desires. And I know this year is gonna be my best year! Heehee.

I too, wants to have a chance to create a world of my own with a special someone. Doing crazy things which draws us closer.

A discussion that never really had a solid conclusion continues. So what is love? How do we know we're in love? How do we know he/she is the one? Is it compromising or complimenting one another? Is it love that causes us to forget about all the other weaknesses of our other half or is it because of a decision that makes us commit & accept his/her weaknesses by compromising or complimenting? Is love only an emotional affection or it can be so many things that there will never be a definition for it? Etc etc etc..

Confused.

The only thing I can say is: Don't set your hopes about relationships so high like what you watch in romance movies & drama because you will be disappointed. By 1 fact that man is not perfect meant it won't be 100% nice. And when it's the time that it is not nice, what will you do? Give up, change you partner and go through this cycle again and again because you always feel that he/she is never good enough for you. Or make a decision to commit and accept your partner for whatever he/she is by compromising and complimenting?

Lower your expectations & accept the ugly fact. Then maybe you can find someone in life.

I wondered, wonder and will keep on wondering. Who will he be? How will he be like? Where will I meet him? Why him and not others? When is it going to be my turn?

Wonder...

Why was I surprised to hear the news when my friend told me about it on Thursday? I should have guessed it.

However, I’m not sure whether there was any misunderstanding or anything as told to me by someone. Just give them a benefit of doubt that they left with good relations with their ‘ex-colleagues’.

With this, I wonder if he is still around. It has been some time since I saw him serving in S2.

I hope…

Sincerity.

I think in everything we do, we got to do it with sincerity. People know when things done are compromised. Besides, I always believe that if you don't feel like doing something, and does it in a slipshod manner, I rather you don’t do it at all.

Have that principle towards matters and people and you will reap back that same sincerity.

I was extremely touched when I heard this song in F.A.M.E. (the movie). If any guy could play and sing with such quality like Asher Book, it would be amazing and I would be totally impressed. If he is singing to me, he would score sky high points. HAHAHA!

Well, hoping, wishing, dreaming, thinking one day....



Try by Asher Book

If I walk, would you run?
If I stop, would you come?
If I say you're the one, would you believe me?
If I ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me It's the start of something beautiful.
Am I catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

I prayed for miracles to happen specifically in the area for ministry, career and relationship. I had a rough vision about them and prayed specifically.

Today, will be the first step to ministry, leading worship today.

Today, is also the 4th time it happened. I saw 'it' on Facebook the moment I finished praying & worshipping.


Nothing beats trusting, believing and acting.

You are my Father by True Worshipper

IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE I RUN, YOU'RE THERE FOR ME
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT I'VE DONE YOUR LOVE'S FOR ME
YOU WIPE AWAY THE TEARS, YOU LIFT ME WHEN I FALL
MY LIFE IS SAFE BY THE MERCY OF YOUR GRACE

IT DOESN'T MATTER WHERE I GO, YOU WALK WITH ME
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHEN I FALL, YOU COVER ME
YOU WIPE AWAY THE TEARS, YOU LIFT ME WHEN I FALL
MY LIFE IS SAFE BY THE MERCY OF YOUR GRACE


YOU ARE MY FATHER, PROVIDER
YOU'RE MY DELIVERER
YOUR MERCIES EMBRACE ME, SURROUND ME
THROUGH YOUR EVERLASTING LOVE
FATHER I WORSHIP YOU

FATHER I WORSHIP YOU


AND YOUR LOVE IS FOR ME
AND YOUR LOVE IS FOR ME
AND YOUR LOVE IS FOREVER


FATHER I WORSHIP YOU
FATHER I WORSHIP YOU
FATHER I WORSHIP YOU
FATHER I WORSHIP YOU

Happy Valentine’s Day to everyone!

I think my Mom is getting a little anxious that I am still single at this age and yet to meet any potential guys; be it potential boyfriend or husband. Bro have been changing girlfriends or dating for many years while I have been in my singlehood since JC days.

Mom told me that she wanted to get a Forever Friend’s bear with love for me as a Valentine’s Day present upon Dad’s approval. Hahaha! And her logic is that my parents will start the V’Day ‘tradition’ this year so that next year there would be a guy who will be ‘taking over’. HAHA!

Oh well. Either way, I’ll still stand to benefit. =P

I will always be that little girl dancing happily before the Father..

For those of you who follow my blog closely enough, you will know what I mean.

Last year, I attempted to focus on 2 main things – passing BTT (part of focus to get a car license) and launch ilovedecember.com. However, I failed BTT and I went through certain emotional testing and was not able to launch my website last year. I knew everything was according to plan – God’s plan.

Today, I passed BTT and could proceed on to take FTT and start my practical lessons. As I thought about it, I think God has His way of dealing with all of us. Failing BTT at that time may not be a bad thing after all. I don’t think I would be able to get back up so quickly if I focused on getting a license at that time. During this period of wrestling with God, I experienced various basic things which allowed me to understand God’s character even more.

Understanding my identity in Christ, putting my hopes on God rather than man, being broken rather than having a hardened heart, keeping a pure heart and a clean hands, leaning on His strength rather than our own limited strength, acknowledging God in the equation of our success.

Delay is not denial. ‘Do not be deceived, God is not mocked.’ Somehow I knew this year would not be like last year, it would be a great year accomplishing what I couldn’t do last year!

When I had this thought in mind, I saw ‘it’ on Facebook and wondered. Every time I ask God whether that prayer that I have been praying for a long time will come to past, I will see his post on Facebook. I think this time is probably the 3rd time it happened. Is it a sign? I felt an assurance in the heart, “God knows your heart’s desire.”I just had this gut feeling that He heard my prayers and will make it come to past. It is just a matter of timing.

I was glad, I was glad and I was glad.

There was a period of time when various preachers kept preaching about our identity in God. Knowing our identity as sons and daughters of God positions us to receive the power of God upon our lives and be an effective vessel for Him.

I was reminded about this matter recently. I think many things can happen and draw your focus away from the primary things that makes us strong. Many things can happen and wreck your confidence on yourself. But always come back to the very thing that makes us a strong vessel for God – knowing your identity in Christ.

With that, I was reminded not to put my trust on people but on God. Man will disappoint but God will not. Like what was said in Psalms 20:7, “Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; but we will remember the name of the Lord our God.” The word ‘remember’ in this context meant trust. Putting your trust in God protects you from getting hurt or disappointed when people let you down. In this way, you will be able to do what you need to do without a fear whether you will be disappointed because you know that at the end of the day, you can trust Him. God is sovereign and is in control.

So looking at it, it is only when you trust God, that you will know your identity. Knowing God first, and then serving Him second because relationships are built on trust and ministry is built on knowing your identity.

One thing I must give credit to my previous employment – I picked up certain basic IT skills just by observing and listening to how my colleagues troubleshoot IT problems in the office.

I started as someone who dislikes dealing with IT which results to becoming an IT idiot. Progressed on to deal with non technical IT matters; forced to be exposed to matters such as ERP system, email system, hardware & software matters. I progressed further to use certain software applications, gained some confidence to use new applications and deal with IT matters. And I moved on to learn how to build a basic website and how to use the Photoshop on my own; and downloaded design softwares through torrent.

Today, I have upgraded myself to be able to troubleshoot a little at home, i.e. buying PS/2 mouse. Hahaha! And I accomplished to create my own website with the some recommendation from experts on certain features. I spoke like a Junior IT staff. HAHAHAHA!!

I remember someone once said; “you need to have a 'in-built' talent in programming to know how to create a website.” Today, I can proudly say “I totally disagree”. I don’t think I have 'in-built' talent on anything related to IT. Like, SERIOUSLY. But with diligence, determination and passion, it’s never impossible.

Believe in yourself. You have a bigger capacity to what you think you can handle.

ilovedecember.com HAS BEEN LAUNCHED yesterday!!!

Facing a certain pressure that anyone at my age and qualification would face if they are still unemployed.

Dad kept asking what I am doing at home. Mom kept asking how’s the online business which I have to keep reminding her that it has yet to be launched. People around are also asking what I am doing at this moment and all I can reply is I’m unemployed. Dad said I got to know what I want in life; it is not just about getting a qualification but doing what I have learnt too.

I do have an idea as to what I want to do eventually but I chose not to explain myself. All I can say is there is always a humble beginning for everybody but do not despise the days of small beginnings. And I believe in the power of One who is able to make all the impossible possible.

You can never comprehend how great a human heart is when it meets life challenges and roadblocks. You can never imagine how strong a person can become when being pushed by struggles in life. Your heart can sustain more than what you think you can.

After watching Burlesque, I can say it is really inspiring, especially the lyrics of ‘You haven’t seen the last of me’ by Cher. When someone is stretched beyond what they can imagine, the people that they allow to take advice from are really crucial; it can either push you forward and tell you that you can be stretched even more or pull you back and say ‘that’s it’. And there are certain special ones around them that will always believe that their ‘song’ is always ready – you can make it. They know how to make you believe that you are ready too.

‘Opportunities have shelf life’

Personally, I think the movie has displayed the realities of life and people. In life, you meet people who are genuine towards you and there are others that came close because they wanted to benefit from you. That’s a life skill to distinguish between the two as you meet various people and another life skill to know the boundaries that you should not cross over.