Life is like a TV show

Heard this song through the radio. I just haven't met you yet.


Haven't Met You Yet by Michael Buble

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

Is it so difficult to be happy for others for their success, gifts, talents or blessings? Is it so difficult to rejoice with those who rejoice?

We live in a world of ambitions, jealousy and envy. And it is natural for you to be like that when you see someone doing better than you or someone who gains success, having something you don't.

"We are in the world, not of the world."

But it is about swimming upstream, against the current, against the norm. When you do that well, you attract all those who wonder how you did it, being fishers of men.

People do wrong because they don't believe right works. - Dr AR Bernard

Personally, I struggle in this area. Sometimes, I find it difficult to rejoice with those who rejoice. With that I find it difficult to show love sometimes. Instead of rejoicing with them, I start finding some faults in them. Instead of being proud of them and support what they are doing, I stand at a distance.

Its a character which I know I have to change. And I am in the midst of so. Because it is a blessing to bless, to rejoice. And I believe this has very much to do with security.

When you are secured, there is no need to protect yourself from potential 'dangers'. There is also no need to prove anything to others. There is no need to catch up with the current to stay in trend. You dont have to fear of others doing better than you because there will always be someone better. Being yourself is fine, full of strength as well as weaknesses.

And I hope to reach that place when I no longer have to struggle with insecurities because of a conviction. A conviction which will never change guards my heart, my mind and my soul. A love that covers a multitude of sins. *smile*

So what should I be looking forward to?

What do I want?

I have always been praying for opportunities, for God to open doors for me.

Now I realize, when there are problems, there exist a door to opportunities.

I wish to be in an ancient asian place with a beautiful scenary and a cooling weather as I smell the fragrant tea leaves and sip nice hot chinese tea. I could hear the birds chipping, the smell of the forest, mountain and grass, feel the sun, enjoy the cool breeze and appreciate life as it is.

Yes. This is what I really want to do now.

Serenity is bliss sometimes.

And I miss Taiwan's Alishan. But the road to reach up there can really be a challenge.

Are there times when you feel like your day, your week, your life is terrible? Times when you feel like everything seems to be failing you. Times when you feel like everything seems to be going against you.

Are you a victim of your choice?

Have you heard about the well known illustration about water and a cup? Is it half filled or half empty?

This speaks of perspective. In every situation, there is at least 2 perspectives which you could choose to have; a choice between options. And what you choose will turn out to be the outcome of these situations.

Take for example. Your day could be bad because of all the things that has happened. If you could take some efforts to look at the opportunities that situations bring, its really not that bad afterall. Instead, your day turns out to be a good one because of all the opportunities that were thrown to you.

What I mean is, whichever perspective, mindset or choice you place emphasis on, thats how your situation is going to be. Not that you have no choice because there always exist options. Its a matter of taking some effort to realize, identify and find out what they are.

Dont be a negative person because no one likes to mingle with soursops or pickles. Have the joy of the Lord that is your strength, the hope that does not disappoint, the peace that surpasses all understanding, the love that covers a multitude of sins, the grace that is sufficient and the mercy that is everlasting. Stay positive, joyful and strong in the Lord.

My colleagues were discussing about marriage proposals and wedding photoshoots when they popped me a question which I have never given much thought to it. I always believe that when you have an idea of how you want things to be, there exist an expectation. With expectations, there might be disappointments, especially when its dependable on people.

"So whats your dream proposal like?"

I hope it would be on a yacht at a beautiful sea where you can experience the nice sun and see beautiful sunset, sea and beach. I hope a few good friends would be there to witness it and help us capture the moment. I am someone who loves to capture such lovely memories on nice photos.

Where would the photoshoots be? I hope it would be at a place like The Maldives. The beauty is breathtaking. And I would have a polaroid or some nice camera to take the whole process of photoshoots. If there is time, I would probably make a scrapbook to capture all the moments which are important to the 2 of us till the marriage and thereafter.

Other than having our wedding photoshoots on the beach or nice places, I hope to have 1 underwater. Hahaha! If we're rich, we could take a photoshoots underwater with my wedding gown and his wedding suit. If not a flowy blue dress and him with his shirt and berms will do wonders too; we can do without his top if he has good bodyshape to show off. HAHAHAHA!!!

And since we're at places like Maldives, how can we forgo being on boats? I dont mind yacht or even a normal boat or sanpan. *Woahhh*

Photos are ideal ways to remember all the little things we have done together. Memories I would never want to forget. And these will be the ones to remind me of his love and commitment. All because I have a big weakness - a bad memory.

All these are too early to say. Take the first step before considering the rest of the journey. But anything is possible in dreams. Hahaha. These would be what I hope to have in future and a chance to do and experience. Just thinking about it make me happy. *smile*

In the past, the commandments of God were written on the tablets of stones. Stones were also used as a remembrance of what God has done for the children of Israel.

Today, instead of tablets of stones, these are written onto the hearts of His people. We no longer need to do rituals or sacrifices nor do we need to rely on physical things to be reminded of who God is or what He can do or depend on the priest. Jesus has died so that the Helper can come; so that each one of us can have a personal relationship with Him.

Today, we can pray, worship, seek the Lord in our own quiet time and find Him, hear from Him and know Him intimately

The Holy Spirit reminds us, helps us, instructs, guides, teaches us how to walk the narrow way.

"Thats because I never thought that someone like you would ever like someone like me!" - Rachel in Something Borrowed'.'

I would probably say this if I'm in her position too.

Self-worth. Self-image. Confidence. And the question "Will I be good enough for you?"

So what do you want?

We ran through the photos of the past. I realized how much we have grown and gone our separate ways as the group is no more.

I got a little emotional and wondered of all the good times I had with all the ones who fought a good long fight alongside with me. I also have grown up. As much as I enjoyed the past, I am looking forward to the future.

I got a little emotional as I thought about the future. Who would stay and be included in my journey ahead?

So close. Really. I feel its so so so close to coming to past.

No doubt everyone needs love. And most of the time, the root problem to most of our problems relates to this word called "love".

The thing is not whether is there love around because there will always be. Everyone needs it. The issue here is whether are we looking for it at the right places.

Some uses other things to cover up that emptiness we feel inside. While others seek love in the wrong places or from the wrong people.

Ask yourself. Is this love or this thing which makes you feel loved or give you what we call love leading you into a position which elevates you or it spirals you into something darker? Is this thing resolving your need or creates more needs in you? Is this thing filling the emptiness or it merely covers up?

Find love in the right places from the right people and in the right things.

As a woman, I understand that there is another factor which controls us - emotions. Most of the time, when feelings / emotions are concerned, its gonna be complicated. More complicated than what we think we can manage. So that's when we need to balance between the two - emotions and reasonings; through self-control. It is difficult to say where the line should be drawn. Just whats best, whats wise, whats 'sound'.

I'm not so great to say it doesn't bother me because I'm still learning too. I'm still a woman.

Charisma. Words of wisdom. Words of knowledge.

These words which You spoke are also the words that I have been thinking about.

I wanted to search for the meaning of charisma but Ian has already answered that during cell group yesterday. It means gifts.

I thought to myself again. What is God trying to show me when time and time again He reconfirms whatever that was dwelling in my heart. What does it mean? Is it just a simple reassurance or is there a greater meaning?

Its funny. You're always on the top of my list but we never seem to have any connections. So why should you be first? Weird system.

The bible says "'For it is not by might nor by power but by the Spirit' says the Lord."

God doesn't expect us to overcome struggles by relying on our own strength. But He expects us to make a decision and a commitment to overcome it, be it a difficult time, a temptation or a distraction.

The Holy Spirit is a gentlemen. He will not force His way on us hence He will not do anything until we give the green light.

So no one can force you to make a decision except to influence you. After you have made a decision, pray and ask for grace - the undeserved power from God. Don't depend on your own strength where there is a greater Support available for you.

Do understand that if not for the grace that was made sufficient available for us, we wouldn't have make it so far.

Start with thanksgiving today.

A particular phrase which Pastor preached during the churchwide bible study on Wednesday dwells deeply in my heart.

"The devil is wise, very very wise indeed."

He knows your weaknesses and uses that to lead you into temptations all the time. He deceives you and deludes you by glamourizing the sin and downplaying the price to pay for it. He tempts you into sinning against God and draws you away from Him because sin can grow, starting from a seed until you reach to a point of no repentance. Initially, you will only need a small amount, but the appetite for it will grow to get the same pleasure / effect.

Take lying for an example. You start from 1 lie which leads to 5 lies to cover the first and you continue lying more and more to conceal more lies. Look at the root problem here. It can be your low self-esteem, hide a consequence and many more. You lie more and more to cover up your root problem. The same goes to any others.

That is why it is important to pray, check your heart and repent all the time to walk the narrow way.

One thing I learn; not breaking through these temptations will only lead you in circles in your walk / journey with God. Don't lose your youth away. Don't waste the time when you can do so much more as compared to when you are older, committed to more responsinilities. So I learnt that in order not to waste time and ensure that I keep walking, resisting temptations or breaking through from temptations are vital.

Along with temptations, distractions, offenses, disappointments, hurts as well as discouragements are also weapons of the devil. There is always a need to pray, check and guard your hearts; equip yourself with the word and truth as well as have support and encouragement from one another.

ILLUSIONS

An illusion is a false mental image produced by misinterpretation of things that actually exist; an instance of being deceived.

Sometimes we believe in what is false to run away from the reality, a deception to make us feel better but the reality would never change. The world will still go on while you are in your own little world of illusions.

What does these illusions do for you? Things are never true and real in this world. Its just like alcohol, an anti-depressant which helps to clear your troubles but is short-live carrying a consequence. At the end of the day, the 'effects' of alcohol will fade away and you will be forced to face your troubles again as well as the effects of hangover. Same goes for indulging in illusions.

And how long do you want to do this before you can accept the truth? How long do you want to rely on deception to feel better? It will never solve the root problem which calls a so-called need for it.

If you would weigh the opportunity costs, you will realise that it would be wiser to decide to deal with your problems now rather than deceive yourself. You can save a lot of time and energy and many bad decisions.

Life is really about choosing the options presented in front of you. The choices you make will determine your future. Your decision-making process will be greatly influenced by your mindset and principles / convictions in life.

Conclusion: Get out of deception, self-pity and start walking in truth

Running away can never solve a problem, facing it does.

Facing your problems takes courage and strength. Aside from the consequences, we need courage and strength to deal with the past, what has happened, the 'cause' of the 'effect'.

Usually, in a normal circumstance, we hold onto the past while looking at the future. We hold onto the hurts, pain, disappointments, unforgiveness as we endure what lies ahead of us. These emotions and 'commitments' blinds us from the truth and cause us to stray away from what was intended for us.

The best solution is to let go. Letting go meant forgiving and giving to God what you can never control or be in the position to do - judgement.

Thank God for a great plan.

Everything that I have been picking up and learning for the past 6 months before He opened the door was really a preparation of what I am doing right now.

If you ask me this question 2 weeks ago, I wouldn't really be able to tell you specifically. What am I doing in my new job with a position of Online Marketing Executive? 3 words - bao ka liao.

I am doing business development, sales, set-up of website, photoshoot of products, management of website and business directories and many more. These responsibilities are relatively similar to what I was doing in the past 6 months but in a greater scale. This means greater responsibility and more things to learn and understand.

Stepping up the standard and keeping the passion going.

Oh! You are still alive and around. Hahahaha!!!

I just went dinner with mom and shared with her that sometimes when we are so certain we are right that we will find compromising a difficult thing to do.

The mindset and attitude of a self-righteous person will not be able to lower themselves to compromise to the other party whom they think is in the wrong. Sometimes, I think it is not a matter of being right or wrong but learning to accomodate and compromise in spite of the fact that you might are not be the one who did wrong.

Sometimes, in a relationship, be it friends, family or love ones, it is difficult to determine who is right or wrong. And failure to compromise would make relationships distant, not working out.

There are many things which I agree with my new boss.

I already sensed that he is a christian the day when I met him for the interview. One thing he shared make total sense: we got to enjoy what we are doing, not doing for the sake of doing. So true.

Before I knocked off on Friday, he had a chat with me to find out how are things with me. First thing he asked was whether I was bored! HAHAHA.. Definitely not, as long as there is something to learn, nothing should be wasted.

Appreciate the people God places in my life. There is a meaning and purpose in everything.

Learning to let go to allow others to make their own decisions.

There must come to a point of time where you need to understand that everyone has the freedom to choose. So try not to instil your mentality and decision into them because it wouldn't be fair. They too gave you your freedom of choice.


Learning to let go and let God.

As much as we want something, want it to happen, God wants us. Be conscious to make God your top priority and let there be no idols.

Like what pastor mentioned yesterday, don't let success 'change' you. Stay humble towards God with the fear of the Lord. Stay faithful and zealous to fellowship with Him. Hold on tightly to Him when He passes by.

When I started work, I try to make it a point to wake up 1 hour before the required time to pray and seek God. It is important to lift up the day into God's hands before starting it. Some prefer to end the day with God but I prefer to start the day with Him. This ensures my priority is set in the right place and a word to guide during the day at work.

Everything is good.

I thank God for favor in my new job. People are good. Environment is relaxed. Workload is OTOT but need to exercise discipline. Boss is friendly and understanding.

This is just the beginning. The adventure has yet to start.

First of all, I need to grasp the business, industry / market and product knowledge by starting from the bottom. Then I can do more 'complicated' stuff.

More to come, looking forward.