Life is like a TV show

I'm like a little girl.

Although there has been some life lessons which I have learnt, there are so much more to pick up.

Sometimes I choose to be like a little girl who chooses to be stubborn and wants things her own way. Sometimes when those things are not given according to my expectation, I start to feel upset and whine.

I thought I could twist the arms of the Provider. Or at least let Him know that I don't like it.

I was like a kid who chooses not to grow up.

Your eyes is on the sparrow. And Your hands it comforts me.

Allison sang "Jesus be the center of my life."

I immediately remember that time when I played that song as I felt discouraged at work. I remember I was doing some production work, work which most wouldn't want to do, when I played that song.

Seriously, it can be draining at times when you kept staying at the backstage, being faithful in what you are doing, yet do not see any breakthrough. You wondered if people see and will recognise what you are doing. I'm not looking for recognition but more like whether you doing things in vain.

As we sang the song, I was assured that He saw everything that I was doing. Nothing is done in vain an God recognises all my efforts, commitments, sacrifices and faithfulness. I wept the moment I know God knew and he is telling me that He knows.

"All things work together for good for those who trust in God."

"Trust" was challenged when I couldn't see the things that lies ahead clearly. And there are prayers that are left unanswered at the moment.

Today I wrote "I trust You. My hope and confidence are in You."

Work. A place where one might put himself above others to benefit himself at the expense of others.

Sometimes you are crying out in desperation and wondered if people do know the efforts and time you put into your work. You wonder if people understand the workload you are handling.

When you compared, you felt like you are taking much more than the rest. When you compared, you felt like this world is never fair.

You wondered "Who will know and see?!"

God knows and sees. And He was there.

His principles will always be true.

"He who sow sparingly will reap sparingly. But he who sow bountifully will reap bountifully."

"He who humbles himself will be highly exalted. But he who exalts himseld will be put down."

This world is never fair. But God is. Your rewards may not come in the manner of cash, it may come as intangible things that money can never buy.

But I'm still human, trying to keep the positive attitude.

I realize discourgements can seep in subtly.

I wondered why I was pretty down at the beginning of this week. I wondered why I lost the joy of the Lord. I wondered why I felt so lethargic and tired.

Discouragements.

I wa discouraged that I couldn't seem to figure out the driving circuit stations. I was discouraged that the thing which I hope and prayed for never seem to happen. I was discouraged at work. I was discouraged that I did not see a reward which I have hoped for which I thought would satisfy my heart.

Mom said "Don't let situations overcome you. But overcome the situations."

I encouraged myself by speaking the promises of God.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

"Do not grow weary in well doing. In due season you will see the harvest."

"For it is not by might, nor by power but by the Spirit."

"The joy of the Lord is my strength."

It has never been my intention to depend on my own limited strength. Yesterday as I prayed about my situation, He reminded me that it is only the beginning of the race and already I feel challenged.

Jesus be the center of my life.

The story about the Lord who gave 1, 2 and 5 talents to 3 servants (Matthew 25) kept coming up through my mind.

I recalled asking a friend if I will lose the anointing of God if I step down. Her answer was a definite yes.

The most anointed area when I was leading was my worship. To me, I did not experience the anointing of God just to lose it due to circumstances. I wanted very much to keep it.

But the principles of God applies. He takes away what you do not use.

I hope to use everything that God has placed in me throughout the journey. He will multiply it from glory to glory, strength to strength.

With this, I went for choir audition.

I pray doors of opportunities will open.

For Your glory.

"I would'nt have changed what happened to me. Because then I would'nt have this chance in front of all of you. This chance to embrace more people then I ever could have with have two hands." - Bethany Hamilton

Too little time, not enough drive to do many things in life.

BUT have fun in life!!!

Don't take life toooooooo seriously.

"Always look on the bright side of life!" *whistles*

Just when life wants to knock you down, you stood up on both your feet and kept walking.

Just when life says you can't make it, you stood there saying "All the more I should make it."

Just when life situations seem too big for you, you stood there and look up.

Just when others thought you can't, deep in you you knew you can't yet you said "Not by might nor by power but by the Spirit."

Just when life seems unfair, you chose not to submit to that and compared yourself to your best capability rather than others.

Give a pat on your shoulder and say "Thanks for coming thus far. Let's continue walking."

No one can kill the spirit of an overcomer except yourself. Don't give up! *smile*

What else is there to achieve?

Driving. I love December. Career. Ministry. Holiday.


But first of all,

"Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers." - 3 John 1:2

"For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?" - Matthew 16:26

Ups and downs in life.

Even without battles and obstacles in life, one will feel tired after walking for some time. Thats when you need to find rest, recuperate from the heat and harsh conditions during the journey.

People don't expect you to be high all the time, there will be a low sometimes.

Taking a step back to breathe.

Could you feed me with a little bit of information about what's going to happen?

I need a vision, a purpose, a meaning to this.

I'm glad I asked. It is a load off me and I feel better that I need not cling onto it.

I can put my focus elsewhere.