Life is like a TV show

It is a thin line between excuses and reasons.

I was pretty upset and angry with myself that I didn't pass my driving. Totally disappointed with myself.

Stress from work as well as friendship coupled with the failure has caused my emotions to be rather unstable. I started to have self-doubt; wondered if it all happened because I'm not good enough or I never deserved the best.

I knew many other things will be affected when your emotions are not stable and my mind is not strong. I had to depend on His strength but I simple do not know how.

Before I reached office the next day (Friday), I knew I had to sort it out before I meet anyone (colleagues). The Holy Spirit reminded me "Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I say, rejoice!"

Praise will lift up your spirit and stir up faith in you. Praise will cause the joy of the Lord to strengthen you. Praise will break the spirit of oppression and open doors to your miracle. Praise will give you a reason not to lose hope. Praise will will turn a break-down moment into a break-through opportunity.

Even at your downest moment, trust Him that the thoughts that He thinks toward you are thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you a future and a hope; and praise Him.

Just when you thought He has forgotten about you, He showed up and told you "I will supply all your needs above and beyond what you can think or imagine."

Immediately you knew that He has never leave you nor forsake you.


Philippians 4:19
But my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Still remember what attitude you had when you set out on this journey?

Where God leads or instructs, I will go.

"For Your ways are higher than my ways, Your thoughts higher than my thoughts."

So why are you whinning when things don't go your way? You have already decided that it is all about Him at the start of the race. It is about where He wants you to go rather than where you want to go.

"Trust & obey" you said, decided and committed.

God is in control.

What's my problem?

I don't know. Maybe I'm starting to feel the burden placed on my shoulder is getting heavier. So I'm not prepared and ready to take more.

Especially unnecessary ones. Not until I have sort those that I have.

Selfish? Self-centered? Yes, I am. To ask for some time. Or maybe even space.

My friend ever shared that her friend got into a relationship with this guy because she was afraid that she can't get married.

Is it fear which causes a such perspective or lack of knowledge (in a way) that causes fear which results in this decision making process?

I'm seriously not so keen to know psychological aspect of it because its too profound to understand.

But I'm curious about life. Does people choose to live this way merely by their choice of certain perspective or chance in life (plan of God). How much of it exists because you fought for it through actions, how much is due to chance and how much is because of your choice of perspective?

So does it mean that no matter how you frame your perspective sometimes it still depends on chance?

Chance vs perspective vs action.

So confusing. Can we keep it simple?

"你会觉得很生气可是你哭也是因为觉得很委屈你自己"

Pretty true.

I wonder what is my capacity. And maybe this is my threshold.

Just before the rubber band snaps, stretchability is added. Just before stretchability is added, the rubber band has to be stretched to its maximum capacity.

Each has their own 'maximum'.

I find God pretty amazing.

The opportunity to serve is often given when I'm spiritually challenged. At this period, commitment is a test.

But I guess this is how we go from glory to glory, strength to strength.