Life is like a TV show

Oh Lord, give me the grace to go through this journey.

You know what is going on in my mind. And I cant help but to think with a carnal mind. My thoughts are negative and its eating every bit of energy I have to go through this stage of life.

The frustration is in me when I think of the unfair circumstances. The very fact that I feel I have a responsibility to make a difference to this situation, I need to accept the unfairness. I need to face it. Many will try to change my mindset to say its a learning process. But first of all, I need to come to terms with it before I can think positively. There got to be a stronger reason why I should face this unfairness.

While I sort this out, I felt uncertain about the future. Will my sowing reap? Or its going down the drain as its done in vain as others treat it as a plus for them?

And a frustration exist because of the long unanswered prayer. I'm losing hope. I'm losing faith as I felt God has forgotten.

Oh carnal mind, carnal mind. How limited are you!

Didn't God mention that it is always about Him before the start of this journey? Did He not say that His grace is sufficient? Did He not say that He is with you as you stand with kings and the Spirit will give you utterance? Did He not say He is Emmanuel? Did He not give you a vision to make a difference in lives rather than the position, power, status that others are seeking?

Did He not say you are His precious? Did He not give you a promise that you are not forgotten? That He remembers your name and calls you by Your name? Did He not say that if He can provide a resting place for the sparrow, how much more the desires of your heart? Did He not say that He is Jehovah Jireh? Did He not say that He knows the thoughts that He think toward you, thoughts of good and not of evil?

"Fear not, for I am with you always." says He.

I need to stop being so negative.

Its as if the world is against me. But its not true.

There many beautiful things around. Things to thank God for. Things to be appreciative about. Things which leads us to our destiny.

Its about the journey not the destination.

I need to remind myself "Why am I here?!"

"Everywhere I go, I know You're not far away. You're right here, You're right here." - Right Here by Jeremy Camp

Many told me that retail hours will be a burden when it comes to meeting people.

I thought my hours is not as bad but I cant help to admit that too. Ending later than all your friends makes you miss out much. Not having any off days on weekends makes you compromise on attending church service.

But i guess its a sacrifice that I need to make to stay here. At least I know You're here.

Have hope. *smilez*

We all grow up along the years and our common topics multiplied as we share our life stories all these years.

She shared some encouraging life stories of others and I'm glad.

He hears and answers our prayers.


She reminded me too. Why am I here? Someone made a difference in me and I wanna do the same to those whom I can influence.

I'm glad that He will always have a remnant.

Listening to "Blessed be Your name" by Tree63 every morning.

It reminds me to be thankful for any other things that are great. Above that, I keep the hope that all things work together for good to those who love Him.

I'm holding on to a positive attitude that every stumbling block is a new stepping stone; every problem is a new opportunity.

"They tell me to abandon You to chase my dreams. So what am I suppose to do if I only dream of You?" - All Because by Tree63

Lets come back to the original purpose of why we are here. Its all because of Jesus, all about Him, all for Him.

Someone once told me money is everything, it can even buy happiness. Although I didn't start a debate, deep in me, I know it is not true.

To me, money cannot buy lost time which many would hope to have. Money cannot buy good health. Money cannot replace time and effort; character and values.

I have nothing against being rich or wanting to wealth but I guess I have a different priority and mindset about it. It is not in my first priority to be rich. There are many other things which I value more than wealth.

As much as we want to do according His will, He would very much to fulfil our hearts desire.

We need to know what we want.

Sometimes the problem with me is I don't much effort into considering what I really want and hopes Someone could do it for me. But I guess, I need to think about it thoroughly.

My dog is so loving.

Knowing she has some problem with her skin she didnt want to come close to me. Until she knows she better, she sits beside me.

I love my dog.

就是你! Merry Christmas...

I miss worshipping in church, the House of God, with the rest.

But it is written:

"And, behold, I am with you, and will keep you in every place where you go, and will bring you again into this land. For I will not leave you until I have done that which I have spoken of to you. And Jacob awakened from his sleep. And he said, Surely the LORD is in this place, and I did not know." Genesis 28:15-16

At this moment, while listening to Coldplay in the shop, I wish...

I am at a cafe, sitting next to the window while its raining outside, with a book, enjoying a cup of hot chocolate, looking at the rain outside, beside him who might be working.

I am driving along a long road on a cooling day, overseas, with my shades, enjoying the scenary as I drive by, beside him who is looking at the same scenary.

I wish...

Just a thought.

Everyone has different sides as we meet with different situations in life and form various perspective and judgements from what we experienced.

To some, we reveal certain sides while to others, we reveal other sides and to very very few we reveal all sides.

Would like to make clear that what we do not reveal, might not suggest that we want to hide. Personally, what I do not want to reveal suggest that I would want to protect because I might not trust. As such, its different from the term "Two-faced" or "not genuine".

It takes time and effort which results to relationship if you would want to know every side of someone.

At least, this is my point of view. It doesn't apply to everyone.

Ok, I'm learning.

Laugh over your mistakes. Laugh over everything else.

Try not to take everything too seriously. It makes your day happier and lighter.

A day without laughter is a day waster. - Charlie Chaplin

Last week Pst AR Bernard shared about faith. And this word is what I would want to meditate on.

"Trust in the God who gave the promise; not the promise itself."


Yesterday I watched Life Of Pi which was directed by Lee Ang. There were many perspectives in the show and I only grasped 1 which I need now.

Life is about impossibilities too. Sometimes when everything seems predictable, it gets boring. Don't you think? It's when challenges are present and we need a miracle that makes life adventurous and amazing.

The problem with me is, do I believe in miracles when I needed 1; do I believe in impossibilities that He can turn things around and make the impossible possible?

Watching that show reminds me not to base faith according to the realities of this world. It limits God as to what He can do. Don't conform your image of God to a man because He is much bigger, capable and powerful than us.

And I always need to remind myself that we deserve the best! Not the worst, not the mediocre but the best, the most excellent! So expect the best, because we deserve the best. And we are all worth it.

I need 3 impossibilities to happen. 1, I pray it will not take too long. Another, grace needs to be here. Last, I know it will take time and different stages but I will need direction in the midst.

The show ended meaningfully. Pi asked the writer, "I have given 2 stories (1 with animals; the other is with the sailor, cook and mama) which do you prefer?" The writer chose the story with animals. Pi thanked him and says "and so it goes with God."