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Monday, August 10

Swimming on a Sunday afternoon. @ 21:47

After QXW's matrimony at The Art House yesterday, LM LW PY Ken and I went over to Bugis village to get some fake eyelashes because we wanted to put it on during the wedding dinner which was at Orchard Parade Hotel in the night at 7.30pm.

After which, PY, Ken and I proceeded to my house then Ken's house and lastly PY's house to pick up our swimming stuff and we went to Yuan Tai's condo at Serangoon to swim. I have always enjoyed swimming in condo pools because of the serenity and privacy that public pools can never stand to provide.

We put on our swim wear and jumped into the pool and did our laps.

While I was swimming, I was wondering about certain issues that I find it hard-going to go through and difficult to breakthrough. I wondered was it really necessary to go through all this, I considered that I have to count the cost. But I have already started the race and it was too late to say that the cost is too much because the building process has already begun long time ago.

I remembered the days when I was still young and had swimming lessons and my JC days when I trained really hard to be the best female pair Kayaker in school and to represent my school at the national level.

To excel in swimming and kayaking, I really had to set aside time and make certain sacrifices to master the sports and to be the best in the team. Nevertheless, I also had to constantly upgrade my skills and push myself to the limits to enlarge my capacity to break my own time record. This meant I had to gnash my teeth and go through the hard ship of trainings upon trainings which pushed to expand the threshold of my muscles, lungs and heart.

When it comes to the competition day, I would have to conserve enough energy but warm-up was also necessary at the same time. Anxiety, pressure and stress would build up as many would look forward to expect certain performance as they place their hopes on their best trump cards. It would reach it's maximum level when I am at the starting point, staring at the finish point where your friends and supporters are there to celebrate the success or to share the load of disappointment.

As I remembered the experiences of being in a sports team, I asked myself if it was really all worth it to go through this tough and trying times. It is easy to encourage others to keep on keeping on but when you are in such a situation yourself, you knew that it wasn't as easy as saying an encouragement and you would constantly ask yourself if it was all worth it.

I knew that in order to love Him more and more each day and to know His very heartbeat, I would have to go through all these trainings as He would teach me how to draw nearer; and learn patience and perseverance.

When the test comes, pressure, stress and anxiety will come as you go through it and waited for the results to come to past. However, through all the "trainings" you had before the test, you knew that everything would be alright because He has prepared you for such a time like this.

If you want to be "successful" or excel as a servant, son and king, you must be willing to set aside time and make sacrifices for "training".

Just like the man who has obeyed every commandment that God has given to the Children of Isreal through Moses, he lacked 1 thing - AVAILABILITY.

"Jesus said to him, "If you want to be perfect, go, sell what you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me." But when the young man heard that saying, he went away sorrowful, for he had great possessions." - Matthew 19:21-22

Yesterday, I went for QXW's matrimony in the morning!

Honestly, I think every bride deserves to be really pretty on their wedding day.

She looks extremely beautiful on that very day which she put on the flourishing glamourous white wedding gown and covered her head with a veil that is simply decorated with laces. That very day when her groom went to pick her up from her house and worked dilligently hard to qualify to enter into her house to meet his beloved. That very day when she walked down the aisles and everybody cheered loudly on this joyous day. That very day when her dad gave her hand to the groom and when he lifted the veil to kiss his bride.

Every girl would have dreamt to have such a day in their life where they can bookmark such a grand and meaningful moment.

During the wedding dinner, Lydia did a video of what happened during the "gate crashing" in the morning. I must really admit that it is a unique way of presenting every moment, words and people that are important to the newly wed couple.

Thursday, August 6

Random Thursday... @ 23:21

OH MAN!! I just broke the bottle handphone hanging that DY bought from KL the other time. AIYO. My room has the flowery fragrant from the oil that was contained in the bottle! Now I'm left with the 3 beads that was originally sealed in the bottle. T_T"" *DY please don't kill me, I still need to catch "UP" with you tomorrow unless you want my Spirit to be there instead. WUAHAHAHAHA.*

Last night, I watched "Coming Soon" with MOM because it was HIGHLY RECOMMENDED by Edmundo. HAIYO. Honestly, it is not really scary but the scene of the woman being hanged kept running through my mind. WHY has it left an imprint in my mind? Because the entire show is about that scene! Oh man. I woke up at 6.30am and gave up trying to sleep as I kept thinking about it. So I went to pray for at least 1 hour. Then I went back to sleep. *Tormenting*

What is going on in my life??

Firstly, I will be starting work very soon, either mid August or end August. My work place will be at the Great World City office tower. And I will be getting $????. I have been stocking up my "Uniforms" for work - Tops, Dresses, Pants, Capri, Outerwear, Accessories, a Tocco Bag. And I have mixed feelings about having to start work. Because I will lesser time for friends, mom and myself, but on the other hand, when I work, it is productive and produces fruits.

Secondly, through saving up from the pay I get from this job, I am aiming to go Australia in May 2010 and Hong Kong Taiwan in July/August 2010 probably with DY. It has always been my dream to backpack and travel around places. Places that I have been to: Malaysia - Johor Bahru, Kuala Lumpur, Malacca, Perhentian Island, Kelantan; Thailand - Phuket, Bangkok; China - DongGuan, ShenZhen; Korea - Seoul.

Thirdly, my Convocation which will be held on 27 August, Thursday, 10am to 12.30pm, marks the beginning of a new chapter of my life as I officially finish my journey as a student. So if you want to share the joy with me by coming, do let me know. Yeah? HAHA. But come only around 12pm because each ticket cost $16 which is subjected to approval and you need that ticket to attend the Ceremony. T_T""

Fourth, E399 is growing. From a small number of 7 that we started from, we have 11 core members now. YaoWen Christine Michael Ivan Brandan Alvin Kitty HuiMei Alyscia SweeRon and lastly ME. However, this is not enough because I know that everyone in E399 has a greater potential to contain a greater growth. Shall be planning ahead and setting targets once again since church gave us the year planner to inform us about the activities in advance, it would be easier to visualize ahead. Well, the remaining and most important to do are to reach up and reach out. =)

Fifth, Church's 20th Anniversary Celebration was just over! I have been in this church since year 2001 November, almost 8 years already but it felt like it was just 2 years ago since I joined church. HAHA. But it was really an honor to see church grew from 10,000 to 20,000++. Great to feel belonged to this church. Well, as promised, Pastor gave us the crystal block which has the detailed prototype of the church building that we will be having in the near future!

Next, I just tightened my braces on Tuesday. Apparently the Orthodontist changed my wire to a thicker one. I think I heard 4.25mm. It is really doing its job as I start to see the gap between my 3 & 5 closing.

Lastly, I'll be catching "UP" with DY tomorrow. Time, Venue still not sure.

It's been a long time since I updated my blog!!

Well, it’s simple.

Firstly, I needed people to have a look at my wardrobe sales before posting new posts.

Secondly, I guess I was just spiritually dry and had no fresh word to say or no motivation to describe my day.

So now, I’m writing again.

Newest word to me is this old saying which Pastor has said so many times that we took it for granted:

“Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” - Matthew 6:21

“Treasure” meant many different things to many people but to me it meant “TIME & MONEY”. Out of this 2, TIME is the most important to me. If you realise, whoever that I sowed much time into, I’ll tend to be closer to them because 1 of my love language is quality time. For me, spending more time together just bridges the gap of the “unknown” and removes the uncomfortable or awkward feeling.

We all know that there are certain groups of people that should be closer to you by being there and knowing you better while there are some that are not suppose to be so close or not meant to be. However, the ironic thing for my life is there is a group that should be close such that we pour our treasure into it, I felt uncomfortable, awkward with most of the people. There is another group that I should not be fellowshipping so close with ended up to be the people that make me feel comfortable and accepted; and understands me better.

Still, at the end of the day, I thank God for putting people who will always be here and near to me. People such as my cell group people who fought the hard going battle for the past 1 year (YW QX Mic Ivan Kitty Bra), The Gang (LW PY Lest), the Uni friends (DY ZW Hen YH Cind ED) and the most important people in my life till now, my PARENTS.

Many people will agree with me that issues of security such as feeling accepted and assured is as important as finding meaning in life. However, thinking back, I think we do not need many people to be so close to us to feel accepted or assured. At least to me, I know there will always be people whom I can fall back to, just as they can count on me to fall back on. Having this few close people is enough.

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Swimming on a Sunday afternoon. @ 21:47

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Random Thursday... @ 23:21

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