Oh Lord, give me the grace to go through this journey.
You know what is going on in my mind. And I cant help but to think with a carnal mind. My thoughts are negative and its eating every bit of energy I have to go through this stage of life.
The frustration is in me when I think of the unfair circumstances. The very fact that I feel I have a responsibility to make a difference to this situation, I need to accept the unfairness. I need to face it. Many will try to change my mindset to say its a learning process. But first of all, I need to come to terms with it before I can think positively. There got to be a stronger reason why I should face this unfairness.
While I sort this out, I felt uncertain about the future. Will my sowing reap? Or its going down the drain as its done in vain as others treat it as a plus for them?
And a frustration exist because of the long unanswered prayer. I'm losing hope. I'm losing faith as I felt God has forgotten.
Oh carnal mind, carnal mind. How limited are you!
Didn't God mention that it is always about Him before the start of this journey? Did He not say that His grace is sufficient? Did He not say that He is with you as you stand with kings and the Spirit will give you utterance? Did He not say He is Emmanuel? Did He not give you a vision to make a difference in lives rather than the position, power, status that others are seeking?
Did He not say you are His precious? Did He not give you a promise that you are not forgotten? That He remembers your name and calls you by Your name? Did He not say that if He can provide a resting place for the sparrow, how much more the desires of your heart? Did He not say that He is Jehovah Jireh? Did He not say that He knows the thoughts that He think toward you, thoughts of good and not of evil?
"Fear not, for I am with you always." says He.
